I never understand this sadness inside of me. I can't tell if it's always there or only pops up when the weather's not right and I've been sleepwalking my way through life or if it's always there, just under my skin, and you can see through me in the right lighting to the frowns inside.

I took today off, as Mia suggested. But I still don't know how to fix this. I have this incessant need to fix things and analyze everything. Momma says it isn't healthy and I should try to just relax and rest. He says if everyone has crazy inside of them, then it's not really crazy.

maybe.