endmusictoa film

i'm having an ifeelbadaboutmyself attack. the kind where i go through all of the things i'm doing wrong in my head and how i don't know what to do about college and i feel like i'm lying to everyone i know and i feel awful because i want to be having this amazing wonderful beautiful time but it's all getting overshadowed by what i'm doing wrong--and what's going wrong. and i feel sad inside, like at the end of a movie that doesn't go right and there's no consolation, just a slow song over ending credits.