Actual conversation. No copying and pasting involved [except to get it here]:

Punkyelhsa: oops on your head
FrAnDan11: poops?
Punkyelhsa: no
Punkyelhsa: oops
FrAnDan11: poops?
Punkyelhsa: no
Punkyelhsa: oops
FrAnDan11: poops?
Punkyelhsa: no
Punkyelhsa: oops
FrAnDan11: poops?
Punkyelhsa: no
Punkyelhsa: oops
FrAnDan11: poops?
Punkyelhsa: no
Punkyelhsa: oops
FrAnDan11: poops?
Punkyelhsa: no
Punkyelhsa: oops
FrAnDan11: poops?
Punkyelhsa: no
Punkyelhsa: oops
FrAnDan11: poops?
Punkyelhsa: no
Punkyelhsa: oops
FrAnDan11: poops?
Punkyelhsa: no
Punkyelhsa: oops
FrAnDan11: poops?
FrAnDan11: g2g
FrAnDan11: adios
Punkyelhsa: bye
Punkyelhsa: oops
FrAnDan11 signed off at 5:23:35 PM.

Punkyelhsa: i feel so so so so stupid, could you tell me why you love me?
PeLo LoCo87: because you are the best person ever
PeLo LoCo87: and you are like the only one that really makes me happy
Punkyelhsa: =)
PeLo LoCo87: like, truly happy


And the world is right, again.

Bad hair day, bad soul day, bad skin day. I felt fat [as shallow as I know it is] and ugly and pinched and squeezed into something I'm not. I wanted so badly to get away from all those girls with the waxy lips and 2-inch waists. I got 'dissed' when I said hi to someone, couldn't get up the nerve to talk to him once again, forgot to brush my teeth this morning and spoke too loudly [according to Roxie] during the assembly. I want to punch my fist through a wall and run as fast as I can from here.

So now I'm listening to angry girl music about how victimized I am. I know I could put this energy to good use and run around but I'm so dead tired and horribly out of shape. I feel so dissatisified with myself. If anyone has any cheering thoughts, please share.

I've found the perfect First Kiss song and I keep imaganing myself and the perfect unnamed boy, sitting quietly, maybe talking, maybe just thinking. I miss holding someone's hand, I miss being held by someone. But I still don't know what it's like to be with a boy who really likes me. I wish I had that. But for now, I'll just imagine Boy of Choice and snag glimpses of possibilities.

Last night I while walking through Hollywood Video I spotted Little Women and couldn't resist saving it from another day of sitting on a shelf. I watched it with my brothers and sisters; then, Mansfield Park, though I almost fell asleep several times [it was two in the morning]. I went to sleep wondering when I would find my own Lorry/Fredrick/Edmund. Mayhap I'll find a good lit geeky boy someday...someday. For now I have David:


Punkyelhsa: hey it's you
dfinbergX86: hey
dfinbergX86: no it isnt.
Punkyelhsa: oh, wait.
Punkyelhsa: you're right.
Punkyelhsa: sorry.
dfinbergX86: bye!!!!!
Punkyelhsa: my mistake
Punkyelhsa: bye!
dfinbergX86 signed off at 1:03:26 PM.

=)

I woke up to the theme from Mansfield Park today, and feeling inspired, proceeded to read Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice. I wrote in my journal "Today, I suppose, shall be a wonderful day." And I think it truly shall. I hope you feel the same. =) Tonight will be movies [Love Me, Love Me Not and/or Mansfield Park], phone calls with Christa, and cooking.

I'm blogging before school in attempts to start my day off right.

I missed Seminary today b/c I woke up late and didn't want to make Kyle late. And now I'm in a bad mood. Bah. Listening to Alanis Morsette isn't always the best mood-setting music, but this isn't one of her crankier songs, so maybe it's me. Yes, I suppose so. It's me, then.

It's 7:16 in the morning and I'm trying to figure out how much money I'm making today to make up for the lack of sleep. Tho, I'm probably going to die of exhaustion before I get payed. I can't stop yawning. Oh, I want to sleep. So badly....

I've found an acoustic version of "Mayonise" by Smashing Pumpkins. I've heard better live stuff, but Billy laughs so it's all worth it. =)

Today was wonderful. =)
In Seminary we talked about storms and how to prepare for them [the analogy was that life is like a storm...] and there were wondrful jokes born. "Spiritual Raincoat" was among them, and what we should put in our pockets to prepare [church leaders, the scriptures].
I got to school and played outside in the rain with Mia, getting soaked up to my knees, and deciding we're going to pretend that today is my birthday.

I think I'm going to smile at everyone to day, and wave to people I don't know.

Goodday. =)