Oh, gracious, is it Christmas Eve already?

I finished my shopping last night, stayed at Wendy's for 4 hours, and my ankle is still sore from the fall I took-was it last week? Anywho, I think that this break will be very much appreciated. I'm going to Florida the 26th with my families for 4 days, and I'm looking forward to reading poetry and writing and dancing on the beach and looking at the stars.

Recent musical discoveries:

*Zwan
*Matt Pond PA
*Go Sailor
*The Rocking Horse Winner [even though I've known about them for a while, I recently got "Horizon". It's very much recommended]
*Dashboard Confessional, about a year after everyone else [see two entries down]
*Social Distortion
*Dance Hall Crashers, all over again

My inbox has been rather empty, as of late, but I compulsively check it every time I get online. Therefore, I'm usually disappointed. Just letting you cheap guys know, a really long email could count as a Christmas present. heh, heh.

i hope you're glad with what you've done to me
i lay in bed, all alone, feeling melancholy
you left me here all alone, tears running constantly
OH SOMEBODY KILL ME PLEASE
SOME BODY KILL ME PLEASE
I'M ON MY KNEES
PRETTY PRETTY PLEASE
KILL ME
I WANT TO DIE
PUT A BULLET IN MY HEAD

Billy's back. Ignore previous entry, I'm not sure what I've been thinking. I'm not really much in the mood to write in this particular blog, but feel free to visit here or here.

Well, we're back.

It's almost Christmas, I've discovered Dashboard Confessional about a year after everyone else, and found that few things can replace loving arms...

I've been relying on my friends a lot lately, mostly for emotional support. I don't quite know what's going on in my head but I have a feeling it has something to do with it not being warm and this inside sadness underneath my skin. Chin up, and nothings really that bad, but I've been sadder lately than usual. Roxie's found a particularly fruity someone as her, well, someone. I keep telling myself I want to get away and I cry too much. It doesn't seem unusual but I'm not going to get like that again. But, oh dear, I'm awfully bad at sharing feelings and talking through tears. Bah.

Sorry darlings, I have been restricted from the computer for a good while now. A few things:

This reminds me of how she makes me laugh.

Fruity is officially adored

Christa and Ariel and Warner and Ian are terribly terribly missed, and a letter [or email] from them would be much appreciated.

I wrote a song today. Well, a few notes that prompted a "I want you to be happy!" from Christa, when she heard them. hrmm.

I've been enraptured of fabrics, my eyes, driving, Smashing Pumpkins [again and again and again], long phone calls, and you, lately. Head-over-heels in love, really. So I guess that just means that we'll have to see more of each other. Darling, darling, darling, I really do love you.