Saturday, August 30, 2003

i love lord of the rings
and mia
and luaus--even if it's going to have to be indoors. we'll make things work.

its so nice
wanna hear the same song twice

am i the two-faced friend?

cleaned my room...we finally have a dresser. hip hip hurray. i'm wearing a bikini top pretending to be non-mormon.

and we're off to shower.

and i like my body again. oddly enough, the cause was the homecomming series. hrmm....

current mood: lackadasical
current music: rain on the trees

Thursday, August 28, 2003

school isn't too bad so far--having a good time in most of my classes, except american history, but mr. emig is semi-interesting, and i pretend everyone else in that class doesn't exist, plus i hum the sounds and read a lot. so that helps. whoo! i am totally add at the moment and cna't concentrate on anything. here, for your daily entertainment


azureSky309: i got chillllllllsssss!!!!!
azureSky309: they're multiplying
Punkyelhsa: they're multiplyin
Punkyelhsa: they DON'T pronounce the 'g'
azureSky309: hahaha
Punkyelhsa: stupid fatty you got nothing on john
azureSky309: multiply iinnggggg
azureSky309: gah
Punkyelhsa: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo
azureSky309: multiplyinggggaaa
azureSky309: hahaahahah
azureSky309: oh
Punkyelhsa: you suck
azureSky309: your the one that i want
azureSky309: oo oo oo hunny
Punkyelhsa: shimmy shimmy

Tuesday, August 26, 2003

so i almost had a breakdown last night laying in bed thinking about how much i actually don't like school. and today's the last day of summer vacation and i'm spending it babysitting. i don't really mind, i suppose, no one's free anyways...or here. and my partay's in 5 days. we're planning on using a canoe to put the presents in. hahaha i'm so vain. i don't really have that much to say except jess is online....and i was thinking about how i want to go to new york this fall like sooo flippin bad. and hey! she lives in new york! how crazy convienent. such a mooch. ryan is also at college, too busy being a big boy to remember us little people....

current music: save my skin by rainer maria
current mood: sad

Thursday, August 14, 2003

i woke up at twelve o'clock today, to find that amanda was out, despite our swimming plans. but it's really okay. cause i'm re-giving kyle his mohawk tonight, after senior pictures, as he's long awaited. scared tho, i've never doen it from scratch. hope i don't mess it up.

our family and the buergers went to the dallastown carnival last night. me, kyle, david, and brother buerger didn't ride a single ride and we just played on the playground and talked about all kinds of fun stuff. they're so much fun to hang out with. so ghost world came up, and they were saying how it's such a good movie, and i said we should leave this stupid stupid place and go watch it and so after a while we packed up everybody and split up--mom and stan to get the movie and us and the buergers to go get ice cream. we came home and ry-bone came over and we ate chinese and ice cream and that's like, my favorite movie now. it was so awesome. i didn't think i would like dark comedy that much, but holy crap. it was amazing. and yeah i'm hungry now but i dont' think there's any chinese food left. bummer. =( bah. i want to play with mia today.

current mood: tired
current music: you need love by muddy waters

Wednesday, August 13, 2003

i'm sick sick sick sick sick to death of this.

yeah. after the whole fiasco i called ariel and we talked for like two hours. she's so incredibly good for me. i love how we can go from halarious pee-your-pants funny to talking about life and death and what have you. =) I'm soo excited to have her come to my luau, i just wish i would be able to spend the whole time with her instead of being a good hostess. i wonder what it'll be like when all of my different worlds collide and everyone's wearing floral print, to boot.

i fell asleep last night on the couch and slept in my clothes--not a fun thing. i feel all bleh and uncomfy now. i was a-post to go out with ryan today but i dunno...mom also wants to go for us to get our eyebrows done and the chiropractors. i need to patch my jeans too, they have a HUGE hole in the crotch.

other news: i'm getting a callus on my pinky and ring finger from playing wish you were here by pink floyd and good riddance by green day. i looooove guitar soo much. we're bringing a guitar to canada! so stan can teach me hey lady by led zepplin. or attempt to. man so hard.

i'm so vain. i spent like a half an hour yesterday taking pictures of myself with mom's phone and sending them to christa. i don't know if they went through tho. hrmm.

and OH my GOODNESS gracious. Mia let me borrow The Sounds and wholly crizzap. they're like, THE best band i've ever ever heard. they're so awesome. i've been nonstop dancing in my room trying to learn the words. they're soo good. and we saw freaky friday, which fit perfectly, because i came home and all i wanted to do was be in a rock and roll band. ahh good times. it was soo humungously awesome. and look at this!

i never thought you'd be a junkie because heroine is so passe...
-the dandy warhols
that's jonathan's away message! and me and ryan were soo just talking about that lyric like the day before yesterday. crazy. and i got their album, 13 tales from urban bohemia. it's alright...there's some songs on there that have real potential, but it's all kinda sad-ish, so not really summery music. methinks i'll get into it come fall. woo!

current mood: intentional oblivion
current music: none. but i would be listening to the sounds if it was up here

Monday, August 11, 2003

this is pathetic. really sorry. mia did it, and i had to copy.

Color: ahh all of them except mustard yellow, old green, and musty brown. and anything orange that isn't pretty.
colonge: ? i like ralph lauren polo
T.V. Show: gilmore girls, scrubs
Movie: princess bride. empire records. pretty in pink. dead poets society. braveheart. mansfield park. lord of the rings [both]. sabrina. roman holiday. breakfast at tiffany's. my fair lady. anything with audrey hepburn. white christmas. singing in the rain. reality bites. vieuphoria, if it counts.
Band/Singer: smashing pumpkins, ZWAN, the softies, dance hall crashers, catch22, bouncing souls, matt pond pa, rainer maria, paris, texas, the red hot valentines, less than jake, the distillers, tori amos, ben folds/five, rancid
Radio Station: i don't listen to the radio unless nothing else is available
Subject: english, sometimes, french, history when it isn't taught with prejudice
Hangout: someone's house, in a car driving around
Fruit: rasberries or blackberries
Month: ahh i dont' know
Season: summer or fall
Holiday: all hallows eve
Saying: he's got more boom boom than charro

"Do Questions

Do you believe in love at first sight? no
Do you get along with your parents? yes, for the most part.
Do you think about suicide? not as an option, but i think about everything
Do you drink? mostly water
Do you do drugs? no
Do you smoke? no.
Do you think you have multiple personalities? that was stupid.

"Have Questions"

Have you ever smoked? no.
Have you ever done drugs? no
Have you ever drank alcohol? on accident, twice. i had half a rumball then asked my mom if i had to finish it to be polite and she told me what it was. and i had a spoonful of pina colada i thought was virgin.
Have you ever gotten drunk? no
Have you ever made out with just a friend? haha ryan?
Have you ever used someone? as a pillow [good answer mia]
Have you ever been used? not that i can think of...
Have you ever wanted someone you couldn't have? only because of my own inhibitions

"Best Questions"

Best person to talk to: christa, krissie, mia, ariel, mandy, patrick, ryan, and jonathan's getting there.
Best relationship: christa and i
Best feeling: being loved, being comfortable, trusting someone and not being disappointed, snuggles, hooking pinkies and swinging hands through parking lots, laughing
Best things in the world: an MLT--mutton lettuce and tomato
Best stuffed animal you own: uh...not a clue. but Banket is awesome. but she's a blanket
Best thing that happened to you yesterday or today: talking to christa for four hours straight, alex finally emailing me. fun fun long car trips.

"Last Questions"

Last time you cried: sometime last week when i was being self-pitying
Last movie you saw in a theatre: findind nemo with the fam and ry-bone
Last movie you rented: ah no clue.
Last movie you bought: reality bites
Last song you listened to: hey lady by led zepplin
Last song you downloaded: i haven't downloaded anything in months
Last TV show you watched: last night the steven king thing
Last song that was stuck in your head: hey lady
Last person you were thinking of: ryan
Last person you talked to: mom and grandma
Last person you hugged: mom or ali or someone last night to go to bed
Last person you kissed: gram
Last person you went to eat out with: kyle and david
Last person you slow danced with: uh...whoever it was at the last dance. joe newcommer?
Last person you yelled at: austin, probably
Last person you called: ryan
Last person who called you: christa
Last person who told you a story: either christa or kyle
Last person who made you smile: kyle
Last person who made you laugh: kyle
Last person who said they love you: christa or mom-o, i dont' remember

"Friends"

Closest: christa, mia, ryan, ariel, patrick, kyle, mandy, rox and manda
Who livez farthest away: christa
Who livez closest to you: probably mia
Who is the tallest: christa or amanda
Who is the shortest: patrick
Who is the meanest: rox or manda
Who is the nicest: ryan or ariel or patrick
who is dumbest: psh
Who is the loudest: depends who they're with or what they're doing. kyle, when he runs around doing dolphin impressions in applebees
Who is the smartest: christa, probably. or ariel or patrick. or kyle. or mandy or mia. hrmmm.
Who is the craziest: not a clue
Who is the most violent: manda
Who sings the best: i have to say christa--i've never heard anyone else sing. tho ariel does do a mighty fine jimmy hendrix impression.
Who dresses the best: mandy, or ryan
Who makes you smile most: different kinds of smiles
Who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: wah?
Who do you turn to the most: christa, probably, for advice and support no matter what i do.

"Love &Relationships"

Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend/crush: psh. you probably know if you're reading this.
What do you notice first in the opposite sex: what they're wearing, how they wear their hair--i'm so shallow. any distinct features they have.
Are you currently in love: not with anyone
First crush: shane, in kindergarden
First love: stevie. hahahaha psych i'll tell you when it happens
Ideal date: there's quite a few--anything that's not a regular old dinner and a movie.

Sunday, August 10, 2003

he's got more boom boom than charro
i'm home. i still have sand in my ears. do call, i've been ever-so-lonesome.

well. that's not exactly true. but i have missed you.

current mood: homebody
current music: kid by bouncing souls

Saturday, August 02, 2003

so! going to the beach woot woot! i'm sooo excited. not too much to say...waking up mega early tomorrow. like 6. bleh. and i still have to shower. i hate early. but i'm sleeping the whole way there and am starting off the driving with my christa mix no. one that i made about ten years ago with the cranberries and dave matthews band and blind melon and other coolio stuff like that. i'm stoked. soo i love you! and seeya whilst slowly getting skin cancer and wearing my hot hot hot orange sunglasses that are shaped like hearts.

current music: broken speakers
current mood: excited
sorry kiddos mandy keeps doin 'em, and ere go i must as well

Basics --
1. What do you most like about your body?: my eyes and my stomach
2. And least?: the fact that under the curves there's absolutely no muscle
3. How many fillings do you have?: not a clue...5?
4. Do you think you're good looking?: for the most part.
5. Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: my family reminds me as often as possible.
6. Do you look like any celebrities?: christina ricci was once mentioned, but i hope i don't.
Fashion --
1. Do you wear a watch?: no.
2. How many coats and jackets do you own?: like a thousand...
3. Favorite pants/skirt color?: blue jeans, for the most part.
4. Most expensive item of clothing?: probably hoodies...i bet that leather jacket ydnam gave me cost more but i got that for free so woo
5. What kind of shoes do you wear?: flip flops or none
6. Describe your style in one word?: comfy
Your Friends --
1. Do your friends 'know' you?: yes
2. What do they tend to be like?: creative, funny
3. Are there traits in you that are universally liked?: i'm not sure....i'm really friendly, but there's always people that that bugs
4. How many people do you tell everything to?: 2

Music/TV/Film/Books --

1. Favorite band ever?: smashing pumpkins
2. Most listened to bands/artists (as of this week): smashing pumpkins, yeah yeah yeahs, catch22, weezer, and dance hall crashers
3. Do you find any musicians good-looking?: quite a few
4. Can you play an instrument?: just guitar. i dabble in piano.
5. Type of music most listened to?: indie rock, punk, ska, "alternative" from the 90s
6. Type never listened to?: techno--i have to in ry-bone's car tho.
7. Favorite book?: spilling open, a ring of endless light, the princess bride, out of the silent planet, the chronicles of narnia, pride and prejudice, the ender series, seventh son

Religion --
1. Do you detest religion?: no
2. How do you think this universe was formed?: a mix between creation and evolution--my theory is that god's days are longer than ours
3. If you currently follow a religion, do you think people who belong to another religion are ignorant?: i follow one
4. If you were in a hostage situation, and you were given a choice, to either praise the demon they follow or die, what would you choose?: die.

Homosexuality --
1. What is the first thing you think when you see two gay guys or lesbians holding hands?: huh.
2. Do you detest homosexuality?: no
3. Do you agree or disagree with gay or lesbian couples bringing up children?: it's not my decision to make, but i don't really care either way...so sure.

General Questions --
1. Who do you believe is the smartest woman alive at the moment?: uh...christa's really smart. i don't know enough people to say that. she's probably like in india or something.
2. What do you prefer, a sunny or rainy day?: sunny, unless it's like thunderstorm mad hard rainy
3. Do you consider yourself lucky?: no such thing
4. Do you feel pity for people who commit suicide?: no
5. Choose one word to describe how you feel most often: happy

Stuff --
1. Do you own any plaid clothing?: yes
2. Do you own Converse shoes?: yes
3. Do you own Saucony shoes?: no
4. Do you own old school Nikes?: no
5. Do you wear tight pants?: i guess...not like skin tight but they're not baggy either.
6. Is there more than one zipper in your pants?: no
7. Do you know what a squatter flap is?: yes
8. Do you own a messenger bag?: yes
9. Do you wear your messenger bag across your chest?: yes
10. Do/did you have braces?: no
11. Are braces worn anywhere besides the mouth?: on your back. scoliosis. bleh.
12. Do you have short, shaggy hair?: sometimes.
13. Does your hairstyle exceed a height of 3 inches?: it's too long...but for about an hour it did.
14. Would you classify your hair as a deadly weapon?: hair isn't sharp enough, stupid.
15. Do you think mohawks are "neat"?: i find them very aesthetically pleasing. and i miss my bro bros
16. Is your hair black or red?: nope
17. Do you have a favorite brand of hair dye?: i can't find an unnatural color that will look good on me
18. Do you own a bandana?: buttloads
19. Do you wear plugs in your ears?: my ears aren't pierced
20. Are you amused by safety pins?: i fiddle with them, but not really....
21. Have you ever used duct tape as a sewing substitute?: yes.
22. Do you own one or more objects with studs or spikes in them?: haha i gave one of them away, so i only have one now.
23. Do you own one or more articles of clothing from Dogpile, Lip Service?: no.
24. Do you enjoy leopard print?: very much depends on who's wearing it and whether or not they can pull it off.

Habits/Beliefs --
25. Are you disgruntled (having a general hate for everything)?: not a'tall
26. Are you an anarchist?: anarchy's dumb.
27. Does the American flag anger you?: no
28. Are you "working class"?: upper working class? haha
29. Do you dislike "preps"?: no
30. Do you dislike Hot Topic?: i haven't been in there for like 8 months, but for the most part, yeah
46. Do you say "rockin"?: no
47. Do you say punk "rawk"?: okay blink182 barf
48. Do you shout the word "oi"?: haha kyle and i do it but no one gets that we're joking...ahh well.

Friday, August 01, 2003

muhahaha so boring
------------------------
PAST
-first grade teacher's name: Miss Ross. I went to her wedding
-last word you said: you
-last song you sang: good by better than ezra
-last thing you laughed at: me and kyle trying to get the other to ask mom if we can go to the movies
-last time you cried: yesterday, my uterus was imploding.

.PRESENT.
-what's in your cd player: my eighth grade in a nutshell cd
-what color socks are you wearing: not
-what's under your bed: nothing. it's just a matress and boxspring on the floor. how white trashy am i.
-what time did you wake up today: uh? 11?

.FUTURE.
-what is your career going to be: no idea as of late. anthropoligist, photographer, entrepenuer?
-where are you going to live: not a clue.
-how many kids do you want: however many come along.
-what kind of car will you drive: an old one. ask david buerger, hes scoping 'em out for me.

.CURRENT.
-current hair: uh like a bob?
-current clothes: jeans and inside out mxpx shirt and don't let the man getcha down belt and sweater. woot woot.
-current jewelry: a piece of a bathing suit i made into a headband.
-current annoyance: that i'm hot but i want to wear my sweater. and i'm poor.
-current smell: choclate reisen in my mouth
-current longing: mango gelati
-current desktop picture: blue
-current favorite music artist: uh...weezer circa blue album
-current book: the princess bride
-current worry: that i won't see my pals again before the beach and i wont' get a swimsuit in time
-current hate: humidity
-story behind your username: ugh punk rock and roll ashley who loved new found glory and blink 182 thought it'd be crazy cool to make it into a screen name. and then my name backwards.
-current favorite article of clothing: i really really like my nantucket shirt. and my jeans.
-favorite physical feature on a guy/girl: lips, torso
-one person you wish was here right now: mia or christa
-line from the last thing you wrote to someone: "for a week"
-i am happiest when: i'm with my family and laughing
-i feel lonely when: i make bad decisions
-favorite authors: orson scott card, francesca lia block, william goldman, madeline l'engle, c.s. lewis
-do you think too much: i don't think you can. you can think about stupid things too much, but no.
-if you could live anywhere in the world, where: hrm i don't think where matters all that much. close to all my friends and family.
-famous person you have met: uh...i don't think i've met anyone.
-do you have any regrets: not a lot...but some.
-sex or love: love
-favorite coffee: sprite
-favorite smell: skin
-what makes you mad: when people make blatently stupid decisions
-favorite way to waste time: driving around listening to music. daydreaming.
-what is your best quality: you tell me.
-are in currently in love/lust: not with one particular person, no
-what's the craziest thing you have ever done: it would've been when me and ryan went around squirting people with waterguns and driving off but we chickened out for the most part.
-any bad habits: i bite my nails
-do you find it hard to trust people: somtimes
-last thing you bought yourself: wendy's numba fo'
-bath or shower: depends
-favorite season: fall or spring or winter or summer.
-favorite color: green and yellow and blue and white and cream and deep purple and bright ruby red
-favorite time of day: don't have one.
-gold or silver: hrmm...flowers.
-any secret crushes: kinda....

.DO YOU.
-do drugs: no
-drink: no
-sleep with stuffed animals: no, but i have my banket
-have a dream that keeps coming back: certian places and people
-play an instrument: guitar
-believe there is life on other planets: yea
-read the newspaper: sometimes
-have any gay or lesbian friends: yes
-believe in miracles: yes
-consider yourself tolerant: depends who it's with
-consider police a friend or foe: depends on what i'm doing.
-like the taste of alchohol: ick no
-have a favorite stooge: no
-believe in astrology: no
-believe in magic: yeah
-pray: yes
-go to church: yes
-have any secrets: probably...
-have any pets: austin and my puppy, jenny
-go or plan to attened college: plan to
-talk to strangers: ever so often
-have any piercings: none
-have any tattoos: no
-hate yourself: no
-wish on stars: every night
-like your handwriting: for the most part--it's really scrawly
-believe in witches: eh not really
-believe in ghosts: nah...
-believe in santa: no
-believe in the easter bunny: nope
-believe in the tooth fairy: nope
-have a second family: i have like a thousand
-sing in the shower: loudly

okay that's a wierd place to end a survey.
man i'm a dork. by no means should you feel obligated to read this, it's just a litle piece of self-indulgence