Tuesday, December 23, 2003

"Damn the Man!"

You are the theme of the movie! Go You! Speak your
piece, rebel against society and wear a lot of

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Monday, December 22, 2003

overheard at mcdonalds
"...we're having christmas no matter what the devil says..."
"...I said 'something's seriously wrong here, Lord' and he says "Sure is.'"
01. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?
became secure in my faith and self

02. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i wanted to be able to play bad moon rising by summer, but i never picked it up. i'll probably still make them, though it's doubtful i'll keep them.

03. Did someone close to you give birth?
no. lots of people got married, though.

04. Did anyone close to you die?
michelle's dying.

05. What countries did you visit?

06. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
more self-dicipline, more time.

07. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
when ryan and i first went out--sometime in febuary? squealing on the phone with christa as we secretly 3-wayed jonathan before she did the first big thing to disrepute her as an emotional gimp.

08. What was your biggest achievement(s) of the year?
taking school seriously enough to make good grades. letting things go that aren't as important. seperating my illness from who i am. learning french.

09. What was your biggest failure(s)?
not being kind and generous, not being honest with people who deserve it [and people who don't], letting opportunities slip by.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i messed up my neck, and my ankle. and got a little suburned. and had the flu for 10 weeks in febuary.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
my black sweater, my hair cut[s] [does that count?], presents for people.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
jonathan's, over and over again. it's so exciting to meet someone that amazing that you never knew.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
parents. friends, mine.

14. Where did most of your money go?
music, clothes, partying.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
christa's dream boy, my supposed dream boy...clothes.

16. What song will always remind you of 2003?
maps by the yeah yeah yeahs, 99 red balloons by goldfinger, all flogging molly, focusing on swagger...

17. Compared to this time last year, are you
i. happier or sadder? much happier. this time last year was one long ride on the fruity mobile lovin up that emo.
ii. thinner or fatter? thinner, probably. i wear more flattering clothes, which is half of it.
iii. richer or poorer? probably about the same. maybe a little richer.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
making things, dancing in my underwear, dancing with other people in my underwear, relaxing.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
thinking of others' opinions

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
opening presents here and then driving 20 hours to florida.

22. Did you fall in love in 2003?
not particularly...not yet, anyways, but there's still 9 days left.

23. How many one-night stands?

24. What was your favorite TV program?
gilmore girls at the begining, then my preference slowly migrated towards scrubs and arrested development

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

26. What was the best book you read?
i'm really in love with the winter of our discontent, the da vinci code, the screwtape letters, the catcher in the rye, out of the silent planet, pastwatch, leaves of grass, letters to a young poet

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
ZWAN, matt pond PA, elliot smith, the softies, steve miller band, the violent femmes, re-discovering rainer maria, smashing pumpkins, weezer, getting more involved in flogging molly.

28. What did you want and get?
more clothes, closer relationships, a typewriter.

29. What did you want and not get?
drumset, record player, but i might be getting that for christmas.

30. Favorite film of this year?
ghost world, the return of the king, singing in the rain, all audrey. i don't know anything that's come out recently...

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
got sang to at girl's camp, milked it for all it was worth. that type of thing.

32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
seeing smashing pumpkins in concert. going to christa's in the summer. having her come up here. that type of thing.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
it rather evolved from frump disheveled girl who super sucks to tighter pants and smaller tshirts with sweaters.

34. What kept you sane?
more like who

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
delicious conan and winonna ryder.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
the effect --or lack there of--that they had on people.

37. Who do you miss?
ryan, christa.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
ryan, getting to know krissie better as we were more and more like sisters, amanda, linnhe, alex.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003:
nothing can affect you.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
shakedown, 1979...[etc]
So as of today, I've seen The Return of the King three times. I kick butt.

Went to see Randon's play Saturday night after christmas shopping all day, with Mike Nihms. I'd never like even spoken to him before in my life, but I had a really good time. A lot of musical commonground, and he's really passionate about the corruption on the radio today. I felt a little left out because I don't even listen to it, so I don't really know what's going on. But man, ask me anything about the ninties and I'm there. So went to the playhouse in our jeans and tshirts, and felt grossly underdressed but had a good time anyways. The seats weren't the greatest, mostly because the two women in front of me were annoyingly opaque. We went out to eat afterwards with Randon and got back at about 1:30 and stayed up with kyle wrapping presents till 4 and woke up again at 6. so that was horrible. but it was really really fun. had pseudo christmas on sunday morning! i got the complete works of shakespeare [kyle did too, only a different set from someone else--again] and the return of the king soundtrack and tickets to a play. i'm pretty excited for florida. i'm glad that we went this weekend because whenever i get to one house i'm very "i want to stay here forever" and so the fun i had so recently is fresh in my mind--if that makes sense.
went out with roxie today...had a grand ole time. brought a purse, which is unusual. i think i look too prissy with 'em. my hair's all curlyesque tho, which makes me feel neat.
i want to give taylor his birthday present but i can't find it, and i don't know if i'll see him.
christmas always seems romantic to me.
gonna do this new years changing thing on my next post, just to forewarn you. good luck.

Wednesday, December 17, 2003

You're Generally Indie. There's nothing wrong with
this. You like music all over the map and
aren't adversed to listening to some Top 40
here and there. You just know to comment that
The Neptunes are the best producers around
right now. You don't feel the need to debate
constantly with other music geeks, because you
know that Pavement were the best band of the

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mom's a nurse! we went to the pining last night and i bawled my eyes out, partially because someone spoke about their friend dying of cancer and i couldn't get my mind off michelle. But a lot of it was because i'm so proud of mom and we've all gone through so much and she's so happy. Unfortunately, I was sitting next to david and kyle who started giggling every time i wiped my eyes. gargh. heather kept commenting on how french i looked, which gave me a nice ego boost. then she said i look like a hooker, and the boost rather deflated. but i like wearing heels. i wish i had more pairs, and that i could walk without looking like a total boy in them. i should get alex and mia to give me lessons. yeah. i talked to jd for the first time ever, without other people in the conversation. that was neat. even though it was about scarves and i told him he looked like a fighter pilot.
the graduation was today--which really was no big thing. it was cool, though. i mostly read mightygirl archives on stan's phone then hooted and hollered and what have you when mom went on stage. we went to heritage hills afterwards for lunch, and i stuffed myself with crab dip, crab cake, and creme brulé. i still feel like vommiting and drinking gallons of water.
i came home and took a nap after whining in my journal for a bit--woke up at 5:30 or so really mad for no reason other than hormones. i harumphed around and yelled because i wanted to go see lord of the rings and no one would take me, but we're going tomorrow after school. i still don't have my annotated bibliography and i told mrs. mckinney that i would have it tomorrow. hrmm. methinks i'm going to emphasize the fact that i said by the end of the week. i hope we have a delay tomorrow. only i want to spend time with sweet sweet skyler who i don't even really know. i'm suck a creepy stalker--i was debating getting him a cowboy hat as a welcome back to the states gift then i realized that mick dundee has one so he probably had one covered in vegimite and crocodiles. woe is me.
lord of the rings and last minute christmas shopping tomorrow
with mia

Sunday, December 14, 2003

this weekend we had mia and the buergers over twice [almost three times]. friday night wasthe christmas party where i siezed during playing the first noel on guitar--it was rather unnerving. and then everyone came over at like 9 or 10 and we continued to live. it. up. saturday was kyle's birthday party! yay! i got him a magazine and i'm paying for his next show. we had a dance party in the kitchen to steve miller band and the violent femmes and coyote shivers. we were a rockin and a rollin splishin and a splashin, etc. church was verboten today because mumsies was nervous about driving in the ice and snow and whatnot, so we just bummed around and ate a lot. christmas is crazy soon, though, and i have a total of 2 presents out of the 30-something people i'm shopping for. impressive, neh?

i'm such a girl and i'm so lame and emo but i want a boy so bad right now. ryan's got this really cute boyfriend whos my age and christa's all uber dreamy in love and i feel so lonely and i don't even have anyone to hold hands with. during the dance party i was pining for boy of choice to lip synch and all kinds of romantic dorky stuff. i wish.

when i think about my life
i wanna kiss myself goodbye

Sunday, December 07, 2003

my parents have an overly zealous affinity for homemade sushi and the whole house smells like fish right now. i'm doing my american history project on ulyssess s grant...and shooting myself in the foot over and over.

went to dad's this weekend-that was fun. just kinda bummed around and got fat from all the ice cream and pizza. seriously, that's all i ate the whole time i was there. i love having witty banter with my coolio family. so much fun. i wake up and go to bed laughing. it's crazy snowing though, guys. or snowed. what have you. rox, we can go push me into the snow anytime. just call me call me call me call me anytime CALL ME as i dip my head in peroxide. I want to cut my hair on Wednesday at Alex's work, but I'm assuming I need to make an appointment. I'm always scared to have someone new cut my hair. And it's gonna be crazy short.

Christmas is soon and I have NO money. Homemade gifts here's your moment to shine.

i thought i was smart
i thought i was right
i thought it was better not to fight
i thought there was a virtue in always being cool

Wednesday, December 03, 2003

I see: my mom's jewelry case
I need: to do my english paper
I find: myself lonely
I want: to be able to go to bed early
I have: a fouton
I wish: i was in college
I love: you
I hate: stupid people
I miss: christa
I fear: embarassment
I feel: cold
I hear: myself typing
I smell: pepperming oil
I crave: lasagna
I search: google
I wonder: who will pick austin up today

Smiled: on the way home
Laughed: 8th period, shannon eberly and i did mash.
Cried: two weekends ago
Bought something: monday
Danced: today
Were sarcastic: recently
Watched your favorite movie: i watched lord of the rings the two towers [extended version!!] on monday but that's not my very favorite
Had a nightmare: last week--i dreamed i hadn't finished my homework and woke up at two in the morning and started to get out of bed, only to realize i didn't have any.

Last book you read: i'm reading the winter of our discontent
Last movie you saw: chasing papi. oh just kidding, it was the two towers, but that's the latet new one.
Last song you heard: black sabbath, on the way to school
Last thing you had to drink: water
Last time you showered: monday. i'm dirty.
Last thing you ate: lunch--chili and salad

Smoke: no
Do drugs: no
Have sex: no
Sleep with stuffed animals: i sleep with a security blanket and four thousand pillows
Live in the moment: yes
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend: no
Have a dream that keeps coming back: places in dreams
Play an instrument: yes
Believe there is life on other planets: yes
Remember your first love: not yet
Still love him/her:
Read the newspaper: often enough
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever: yes
Consider love a mistake: no
Like the taste of alcohol: from what i've had--no. that is, pina coladas and rum balls are gross.
Have a favorite candy: yes. milky way midnights.
Believe in astrology: not particularly
Believe in magic: yes
Believe in God: yes
Pray: yes
Go to church:yes
Have any secrets: yes
Have any pets: sorta
Do well in school: ehh i dont' do badly
Wear hats: yes
Piercings: none
Have any tattoos: samuari warrior on my right forearm
Hate yourself: no
Have an obsession: food
Have a secret crush: ...mayhap
Do they know yet: i doubt it. i don't know, really.
Collect anything: clothes
Have a best friend: yes
Wish on stars: yes
Like your handwriting: yes.
Have any bad habits: i bite my nails, and i don't really brush my hair. or my teeth, as often as i should.
Care about looks: to a point--i don't usually let it interfere
Believe in Satan: yes
Believe in ghosts: ehh not so much

way to end stupid.

who am i calling stupid....i hate myself. way to fill out a survey.

Tuesday, December 02, 2003

Linnhe and I had a fantastico time yesterday hunting hunters and shouting deers have rights too all over the countryside. We shot rubber bands at these really dreamy kiddos who had hunt a deer up on their tree. It was really sad. But then we went back to her house and I had a roast beef sandwhich in my rabbit-fur boots. We watched the second Harry Potter and wondered if the seventh book will just be one big sex romp [as they're "maturing" as the books go on]. It could happen. We also came back to my house, and watched the extended version of The Two Towers. I had such a good time. Linnhe makes my day whenever I see her. I may eat lunch with her as well.

In academic news, I have 4 projects due in the next 5 days, and I'm blogging so that you all are able to stay informed about my life. Congratulations.

I hate research papers.

Deers have rights too.