Monday, October 31, 2005


today is pickin on modest mouse, a record number of classes skipped, and pretending to be responsible.

still burghing.

more on this weekend at a later date.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

ca me manque

i miss summer.

and my best friend.

and all sorts of diner rendezvous with buergers.

and my brother.

Monday, October 24, 2005

rock 'em sock 'em ashley

today i gave my boyfriend a bloody nose.

cool, huh?

Wednesday, October 19, 2005


log out of blogger and tell me a secret that no one knows about you.

here, i'll start you off:

i have a crush on my professor.

because i feel guilty when i don't post every day.

i haven't eaten yet today and i'm not really hungry but i have a massive headache. plus i'm gong to see the rest of supersize me in health so i'll probably attack the screen or die from starvation.

today was going rather crappily until i had a half an hour conversation with johnny nash. that cheered me up toot sweet. i'm going to make myself oatmeal.

Monday, October 17, 2005

more patrick for your reading pleasure

PeLo LoCo87: you know, I need to shower
PeLo LoCo87: I can tell because I itch

Sunday, October 16, 2005

sugar coma

come on, feel the illinoise! reminds me of driving to and from lancaster and being in the passenger's seat with miles and miles of highway stretched out in front of us. i can't explain how happy i am to really, really share that with someone. there really is another person out there who gets as excited as i do when the strings play along perfectly with the lines passing us by. i knew it'd be something, but i didn't know it would be like this, this close and sweet and

i'm happy.

you can barf now.

Saturday, October 15, 2005


last night i went to a show at a girl named kelsi's house. it was in her basement and we all danced and clapped our hands and said yeah to the music. boogdish and also endless mike and the beagle club made me smile all night long.

Thursday, October 13, 2005


"Each and every scene that you see reopens wounds," Rusesabagina says. But, he stresses again, it is crucial that the shameful message of "Hotel Rwanda" be heard so the world never turns its back on mass murder again.

Sadly, he cautions, the words of a TV cameraman played by Joaquin Phoenix rang chillingly true: "If people see this footage, they will go, 'Oh God, that's horrible' and go back to eating their dinner."

let's change it.


animal crackers and apple juice for dinner and breakfast. i love pretending to be grown up and eating kindergarden snacks for several meals a day.

also, it's been my favorite fall weather lately. chilly but no too cold yet and cloudy so everything seems more dramatic and beautiful. i also cut my hair last night.

so today should be good.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

my brain psyched me out

i woke up today and realized all of the dreams i had about apoligies and kisses and you're perfect weren't real. it wasn't the best way to start a day. i do not recommend destroying all of the mending your mind did in the night.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005


i found this site from joey comeau, whom i stalk. he also write a softer world.

here are a few of my favorite testimonials:

Brianna K.: "Iron Hymen taught me how to use super-effective strategies for just abstaining from natural stuff. And it works so good, that now when I get all old, I'm going to abstain from wrinkles and dying, too!"

Muffy P.: "OHMIGOD, like, Iron Hymen taught me to respect myself way too much to ever let some hairy creep hock man-lugies on my Godly cervix like it's some gross subway platform!"

also, the pledge:

I, [your name here], hereby pledge:

To never wear trampy stuff like shorts or t-shirts or open-toed shoes, which basically tell horny perverts that I'm a major tramp who's just asking for it.

To never let tampons violate the sanctity of my hoo-hoo, because tampons are really nothing more than thirsty little albino penises.

To never have premarital sex, because Jesus doesn't want anyone messing around inside my girly hole until after His church makes some money off a wedding.

also, check out sex is for fags. because it really, really is.

Monday, October 10, 2005


wait, they don't love you like i love you


PeLo LoCo87: Enya rocks.

moi, je grandis

i had my first real sit-down test today that wasn't an essay and involved filling out bubbles. it was in anthropology. i finished fifteen minutes early, handed in my exam, and left. i felt so sneaky, and i kept looking over my shoulder waiting for someone to apprehend me.

i wonder if i'll ever grow out of high school.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

just wanna have fun

i had a fun weekend in pittsburgh. i rode down with my friend eric who was kind enough to let me ride along in his dad's work van on a crate. we got there around five-thirty and kurt finally realized i was there a half an hour later. we chowed down, of course, and then laid around his room for a good bit. there was a fantastic [read: free food] party going down outside his building so we took ourselves over there 'til twelve or so when we came home to watch the first half of pretty in pink. they also were giving out blue colored water that tasted a little vommity, so we took six.

next morning! we slept/didn't move until about twelve when we took my picture for my fake panther card and, again, ate. ate ate ate. we hopped a bus to the mall and sometime on the way there it began to rain like whoa. and it was yuck. especially in cloth flats. but i made the best of it and complained without sitting in a puddle and crying because hey! we were shopping! i also found the dress i'm wearing to his sister's wedding. we stopped in a bath and body works and found lotion that smells like falling in love and bought useless crap at the dollar store. went to wal-mart and spent his mom's money and delicious things like animal crackers and burritos. came home around eight-thirty and napped for a good little while. kurt did, anyways, i folded his laundry and ate a burrito. we were channel surfing that night when we came upon big fish playing on pitt tv withou any commercials so we cried and laughed and fell a little more in love.
you can barf now.
that's really all the important stuff that happened that i'm sure you don't care about. but i just bought a pretty dress so i'm in a silly mood and these are the times i kinda miss xanga.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

track these days

i stopped my rambling
i don't do too much gambling these days
these days i seem to think about
how all the changes came about my ways
and i wondered if i'd see another highway
i had a lover
i don't think i risk another these days
and if i seem to be afraid to live the life that i have made in song
it's just that i've been losing so long
i stopped my dreaming
i won't do too much scheming these days
these days i sit in corner stones
and count the time and quarter tones to tell
please don't confront me with my failures
i had not forgotten them

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

like my tat?

i had a new idea for another tattoo i'll never get today while listening to 'sister'.

a red kite. on my shoulder.

Monday, October 03, 2005


Pick a favorite band and answer only using that band's song titles: Iron and Wine

1. Are you male or female: My Lady's House

2. Describe yourself: Free Until They Cut Me Down

3. How do some people feel about you: Dearest Forsaken

4. How do you feel about yourself: Sixteen Maybe Less

5. Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend/interest: Such Great Heights

6. Where would you rather be: Sodom, South Georgia

7. Describe what you want to be: Mothers of the Rodeo

8. Describe how you live: On Your Wings

9. Describe how you love: Love and Some Verses

10. Share a few words of wisdom: Friends They Are Jewels

iceberg, indeed.

so i like salads. if you know me, you may have realized this. they are tasty to me. conviently enough, they sell a mighty fine greek salad to go at the hub. sounds like a party in your mouth, right? what's even better is i can buy it for breakfast, put it in my fridge, and enjoy it at my leisure. how perfect!
and yet. my fridge was turned to super frosty ice because of the burritos we're saving. so i went to taste my delicious crunchy salad with the god of all cheeses, feta, and olives and tomatoes with a zesty italian dressing on top and it was frozen. like, the leaves were stuck together with ice. that's water that got too cold. which, needless to say, i was disappointed. i don't mind throwing something in the microwave to heat it up to a piping hot temperature [id est, cup o' noodle] to pleasure my pallate but this? waiting for the ice to drip from my greek wonderland?
i was very disappointed in GE. how about individual knobs for freezer and refridgeration compartments? seems pretty general to me.

that was the biggest thing that happened to me all day.

come homeing

i had a weird waking dream this evening. the entire street outside my hall was a frying pan, like the kind i made my stir fry in for dinner, and the sauce and rice was in it but i kept getting frustrated because i couldn't stir it with the giant spatula because the gravel would stick to it. no one wants rocks in their stir fry, right?

i also started to miss high school a little bit. i love pre-homecoming days before classes get too boring and everything's starting to get chilly and you can show off your back to school sweaters and sneakers and talk about so-and-so's dress and who are you voting for because once she said something really snotty and the collective sigh at the end of the day. and the drives home, with the leaves starting to turn and the air starting to get cool. football games on friday nights and sleepovers and coffee shops on weekdays.

but then i remembered waking up before 7 am [or before 11 am, in my case] and not being able to sleep next to the boy i love and going to class after class after class, most of which i didn't like. and the busywork, oh the busywork. guess what i'm doing tomorrow? waking up at ten-thirty, getting breakfast, heading to a class where we're learning about the basic historical theories of what has become cultural anthropology for an hour, eating lunch with interesting people who are kind and then i'm going to learn about world history after 1500 c.e., approaching it with the question 'what created the modern world?' not bad, huh? i also get to work out for free and then more buffet style food with ice cream at every meal! all for the low low price of oh yeah higher education isn't free.

nevertheless, i still wish i could've gone back for homecoming.
although, i do have to weigh frau o'hara in there. frau o'hara to ruslan...i think my gay, 21 year old uzbeki pseudo hipster professor beats out....well, frau. what else can you say.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

to be alone

I'd swim across lake Michigan
I'd sell my shoes
I'd give my body to be back again
In the rest of the room

To be alone with you

You gave your body to the lonely
They took your clothes
You gave up a wife and a family
You gave your goals

To be alone with me

Saturday, October 01, 2005

infinity and beyond

teh kurt: i love you 8 more times
HMSwrecked: eight?
teh kurt: thats the infinity sign
HMSwrecked: hahaha oh